J.C.'s Journal

7:10PM - Yea everyone is going to love this video...

3:15AM - Another Day Another Struggle

You know lately I have been able to see through all the chaos and see how great my life really is. Emily and I are doing great. We are constantly challenged with our imaginations and creativity. There is never a night we aren’t laughing about something ridiculous. She truly brings out the happiest parts of me and she has helped me become such a better person. I also recently started working at The Cove in Geveva,OH as a Talent Buyer and I couldn’t love it more. I get to work from home and I’m working with so many different types of music. Not since I was working at Peabody’s that I have been involved in every aspect of a clubs booking. It has challenged me to become better at what I do.

On top of it all, The Phantasy Theater!!! A dream comes true. With all the tradigy that I had to go through in 2008 with Al Passing, Dealing with my Mother, and the whole Jake The Snake fiasco I was never really able to get comfortable and start taking advantage of this great opportunity. The theater has finally opened the door for me to achieve my dreams. I have only run 2 Firestorm Pro shows there and they are getting better and better. And now that we have our own venue the only thing that is against us is ourselves. Our entrance way is better than ever and we are working on plans to add to it, giving the show more of a "Big Production" feel. If my vision comes out the way I want it will be the perfect combination of Professional Wrestling and a Metal/Hardcore show. It sounds crazy but I have seen crazier things happen. I’m also interested to see how our shows go without Hutter. I have been doing shows with him since I started doing wrestling. The only shows he missed were when he was in OVW and he still would come up if I really needed him. The dude is everything professional wrestling could ever ask for. He has the look, the talent, the charisma and on top of all that he is a real great guy. I really hope the WWE sees what I saw in him back in 2005 in the basement at Turners Hall and pushes him as a champion. I’m happy I was able to do everything right this time around with Hutter. He was the catalyst to the start of Firestorm Pro. Everyone involved was there for a reason but he was the guy that led us all through the storm. I’m so proud that he was our first champion. He set a standard that I hope is kept for all the days that Firestorm Pro is active. And we have only touched on the crust of what’s in store in 2009 for Firestorm Pro. Now that the title has been established we can start focusing on adding more depth to the roster and the shows. I plan on adding a few more tag teams and booking more of a wrestling show that tells the story in the ring as if you are watching it on TV.
Back in 2004 when I made the decision to run a prowrestling show I was at an after party at Peabody’s talking to Ray Rowe about how much I want to change wrestling in Cleveland. That night we talked about how great it would be to do it at The Phantasy Theater. That room just had a feeling that worked so well for a wrestling show. But at the time we realized we weren’t ready for that and we built ourselves out of Peabody’s. Now I’m in my 4th year of promoting wrestling shows, and I have grown so much as a man and as a person. I have sacrificed so much to get here and I have had so much taken from me because of it.
I am so sick of people trying to hold me down because they are scared of what I can do. And I’m not talking about just in wrestling. Over the last few years I have gone through so many friends I chose to work with. Weather it was Promoting, Wrestling, or Music I have had so much taken away from me by people I thought I can trust. Friends I cared about. In all of it I realized that we all started out with the best intentions to work together. But in the end they all couldn’t stop thinking about themselves. As a person I try to live as much as I can by a code of selflessness. I learned so much about being a self centered asshole when I was in a full time band. One day I woke up and I really hated the person I became and I’ve worked really hard to change all that. The only downside is I let a lot of people take advantage of me. But no matter what was taken, I chose to walk away the better man not the bigger chump.

The Theater has also made it possible to really take my printing business more seriously. I have been building up my collection of printing equipment over the last few months and I plan to be going full steam by March. This is the first time in my life where I can print on my own. I have been waiting for this for 8 years.
As far as music is concerned sadly I have become more of a hobbyist. I get to still get on stage with Fenian and let go. After Dead Even and Bozia it’s nice to not have to take things so seriously. I put so much into the both of those bands it’s real nice to not have to worry about everything and just get on stage and get pissed. I really want to do another serious band but with everything else going it’s real hard to find the time. Also when I was younger there were more musicians that wanted to do something with their lives. Really make it somewhere. We were all working together for the greater good. Over the years everyone became elitist, I have learned that is the downside of someone that masters their craft. When they are better than everyone, They also think they are better than everyone. It’s a lot of the reason I had to get away from the music scene for a while. There are so many of my friends that have lost their fire. I then realized that I didn’t want to end up dead to the world and dead to myself.
I spent so long in turmoil; I have gone through some shit. I try not to show it a lot but it’s changed me. Made me so strong and now that I have proven to myself that I can fight my way through all the shit and still know what the right thing to do is. I am excited to take on 2009 with guns a blazin.

I have finally made it here, now it’s my chance to do something with it.

2:50PM - RIP OL' Daddy AL

RIP OL’ Daddy Al
Yesterday I left work early to meet with shroom and pick up Josh for Hatebreed. I got about 3 blocks from work and my Mom called me and told me that her husband Al is dead. He was in Columbus working a roof job while he was up from Florida and He fell off the roof and died. We dont know if it was a heath issue that caused it. I really wasnt close with him but I had a great deal of respect for always being there for my Mom. He busted his ass and took real good care of her. She told me last week that he had a small stroke and they kept it secret and that he talked alot about death since. I believe that he knew this was coming and wanted to make some money for my Mom to survive on. I sat her down last night and told her that he spent the last few months saving up every dollar to get her here for Jake's Leave and my birthday. And that he got to see his wife so happy around her family. Hell he even got to see me open for shroom last weekend. If he ever was going to choose a time to go Im so happy he got her here with her kids and got to see her so happy. That dude really did love my mom and us. His methods of showing his love was a little wierd but we were just happy to see them try to see them want to see them do what ever they can to be parents to us. When my Grandma passed away last christmas it wasnt as hard as this has been. We knew that was coming for over a year and a half. She was able to go in peace. I saw Al for the last time at Jakes going away party at my Dad's on monday. Now he is GONE. Never going to walk through the door again.

Jake took this all real hard, everytime he has gone to Iraq someone dies before he gets there. That just isnt right. And the morning of his death Jake called his wife while he was waiting for his plane in Ireland and told her that he doesnt think its his time to go back to Iraq and that he had a feeling that something was going to happen and he would have to come home. Its all FUCKED!!! On the bright side The Red Cross was on the phone with his wife all night and into the morning. THEY ARE SENDING JAKE HOME!!!! He is going to get here on monday and stay for another 15 days. That couldnt make me more releaved. Its not that Josh and I cant deal with it, but if the 3 of us are together we can take on anything.

I just found out today that the funeral is the day before the next Firestorm show. It sucks that Im about to put on the biggest wrestling show of my career and I have to say good bye to my Step Father the day before hand. Im starting to think that something amazing is about to happen to me and I am being tested with how much shit I can handle. Ray refers to it as the JC Curse, everytime something starts to go better for me and Im happy, I get my knees taken out and I have to deal with 10 times the amount of shit than I was handling. Im going to dedicate the whole show next week to my Mom and Al. He took an extra 2 weeks off of work so my mom can goto the show. I feel that if this end up being the greatest show I ever put on I want to dedicate it to the 2 people that would have been front row enjoying it the most. My Mother and her Husband Al.

6:50PM - Party This Saturday

If you make it you would

3:00AM

So I am starting to get a good feeling about Aesthetic Violence. The biggest reason I like it is because its different than anything out right now. We are going to be filming a music video in the next month or two. We should be playing out by the time of my birthday. Speaking of that Jake comes home for 2 weeks for my birthday. As you can imagine its real hard to live with my brother being over in Iraq. Its real wierd it seems that im just holding my breath untill he gets back. I cant believe its 2008. To think that we started Dead Even in 2002 and in 6 years how I found myelf living this amazing dream. I just wish I had more time to hold onto the people that I have lost.

Here are some of the current albums spinning on RadioJC
Pendulum-Hold Your color
Error-Self titled
Textures-Sillhouettes
Raised Fist-Dedication
Pitchshifter-www.PSI.com

1:36AM - Im getting sick of the "OLEY" Bullshit

I havnt really updated everyone in a while. Let me know what you think...


Aesthetic Violence (Electro/Metal/Industrial/Dance)


Fenian (Traditional Cleveland Hardcore)

New Firestorm Pro Music Video

1:29AM - THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN UP TO LATELY

I can not express in words how happy I am.

7:36PM

(Click Image for Ticketmaster)

We here at Firestorm Pro would like to take this opportunity to invite you to come to our show "Perseverance 2008" featuring Special Guest DIETER from ROVER'S MORNING GLORY on Friday June 13th at Peabody's Downunder, located at 2083 East 21st St. Cleveland, OH 44155. Doors open for this event at 7:00 PM and the wrestling will be begin at 7:30 PM. The show is open to fans of all ages.

Matches already signed:

******ROUND ROBIN TOURNAMENT: FINAL ROUND******
The competitors with the most points at the end of the tournament will meet in a match to determine the first ever Undisputed Firestorm Pro Heavyweight Championship. Competitors earn 2 points for a pinfall or submission victory. They earn 1 point for a DQ, medical stoppage, or count out victory. And they earn 0 points for a loss of any kind.


"The Deviant" MICHAEL HUTTER (5 pts) VS RAYMOND ROWE (3 pts)
Since recovering from major knee surgery in late 2007 "The Deviant" MICHAEL HUTTER has had one thing on his mind. Becoming the first ever Undisputed Firestorm Pro Heavyweight Champion. His best friend RAYMOND ROWE is also in the Round Robin Tournament and has been preparing to become a champion his entire life. At their every step "Big League" JOHN McCHESNEY has been there to try take both men out. Begining at "Destroy Erase Improve 2007" McCHESNEY viscously attacked HUTTER's surgically repaired knee with a crutch until HUTTER's best friend RAYMOND ROWE rushed to his aid. The following month at "Forever Standing United 2008" McCHESNEY impersonated HUTTER and announced his own retirement. Later in the night he sent a message to both ROWE and HUTTER by attacking ROWE with a steel pan until HUTTER made the save. Then at "Rise of The Real Underground 2008" McCHESNEY struck again this time at ROWE when he came to the ring and super-kicked ROWE causing him to fall victim to VINCENT NOTHING and lose the match. But McCHESNEY's final strike at "Fan Appreciation Night" crossed the line. With ROWE out of commission after a brutal fight with STARLESS, McCHESNEY seized his opportunity and interrupted HUTTER's match and super-kicked VINCENT NOTHING forcing HUTTER to lose the match via DQ. But when HUTTER tried to retaliate, "Big League" SHANE TAYLOR hit the ring and literally obliterated HUTTER. With HUTTER laying in a pool of his own blood McCHESNEY stood tall in the ring with the newly christened "TEAM BIG LEAGUE" and promised that he would wear the Undisputed Firestorm Pro Heavyweight Championship. This last attack forced FIRESTORM PRO Owner JC to go in search for a special guest referee who would be able to keep JOHN McCHESNEY out of the main event and have the ability to keep order at such an important event. JC has signed DIETER from ROVER'S MORNING GLORY to be the special guest referee in RAYMOND ROWE vs MICHAEL HUTTER's match, and DIETER has promised he'll lay down the law and call it down the middle even if he has to kill someone in order to do it. At "PERSEVERANCE 2008" MICHAEL HUTTER will be looking to secure himself a guaranteed title shot with a win, but to do so he must eliminate RAYMOND ROWE. ROWE, no stranger to stacked odds, knows that its do or die for his title dreams and the only path to the championship lies directly through his best friend MICHEAL HUTTER.


"Big League" JOHN McCHESNEY (3pts) VS VINCENT NOTHING (5 pts)
Despite his best efforts "Big League" JOHN McCHESNEYY may have bit off more than he can chew with his actions at "FAN." Although he won via DQ, VINCENT NOTHING was super kicked by McCHESNEY in the process in another unwanted intrusion into his match. The month before at "RTRU" McCHESNEY came down and aided NOTHING to victory against ROWE and last month at "FAN" he did the same against HUTTER forcing a DQ by delivering the uninvited knockout to NOTHING. As per usual McCHESNEY was thinking of no one but himself and his personal vendetta against HUTTER when he interrupted the contest. McCHESNEY has claimed that nothing can stop him on his march for the gold through this Round Robin Tournament however on Friday the 13th we will find out if NOTHING can indeed put an end to "Big League" JOHN McCHESNEY.


"Bloody" MORTY RACKEM (5 pts) VS STARLESS (3pts)
STARLESS has been rising like a shooting star since his unbelievable 20' moonsault out of the Rockstar Balcony at "RTRU." He defeated ROWE following a 450* knee drop to the face at "FAN" and needs a win at "PERSEVERANCE" in order to rise up the ladder on the point charts and force a tie with "Bloody" MORTY RACKEM. Speaking of that swashbuckling pirate, RACKEM has been riding a tidal wave of momentum since entering into the tournament as an alternate by defeating CHRISTIAN FAITH. He owns pinfall victories over NOTHING and McCHESNEY and this once-thought underdog has continued sneaking up on opponents and is in a phenomenal position to lock up a guaranteed title shot with a win on Friday the 13th. It's going to be high-flying against the high-seas in this match. Fans, you're going to have to see this one to believe it!!!

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JROCC has requested the opportunity to explain his actions at "FAN" when he unceremoniously slapped THE AFTERMATH following his count-out loss to the newcomer. JROCC's tag team partnership with PATRICK HAYES never really got off the ground and he was defeated by THE AFTERMATH a man whom JROCC claimed hasn't even earned the right to share the same ring with him. JROCC is known for being a vocal and sometimes loud mouthed competitor so FIRESTORM PRO has reluctantly granted his request and will allow him to explain himself on Friday the 13th.

Also appearing: VICKI, "Big League" SHANE TAYLOR, COLIN TO THIS, JT LIGHTNING, THE JESSE BURKE NATION, SHIIMA XION, SHAWN BLAZE, THE AFTERMATH and More!


REMEMBER: Friday June 13th. Peabodys. 7:00PM. Admission for this special event is $15/$18 D.O.S./$25 VIP includes guaranteed seating. We look forward to seeing you Friday night June 13th as FIRESTORM PRO presents "PERSEVERANCE 2008." Fans get your tickets now, you do not want to miss this event, it will be a night no one will soon forget and everyone will be talking about!!!








Firestorm Pro is an alternative professional wrestling company based out of Cleveland, OH. Firestorm Pro creates an exciting and innovative environment by combining live music with hard hitting wrestling action that is up close and in your face.

8:55PM

Dead to fall Broke up.

2:38AM - I have found my PATH

Fenian was featured on Cleveland Scene Online. Check it out.

http://blogs.clevescene.com/cnotes/2008/03/money_where_your_mouth_is_feni.php

3:28AM - Its who you want it to be

I cant sleep. For the last two nights my mind has not stopped moving. If im lucky i find a distraction. But as soon as that ends it starts going crazy again. My brain needs rest. Its starting to hurt in two locations on the front of my fore head. I think im growing horns. I really dont mind, I think they will go great with my hair.

Current mood: nervous

Current music: Smashing Pumpkins

12:19AM - We'Ve Become What We've Designed

*Its been a while since I have updated this. Im kind of buzzed and I figure hell why not. Nobody really talks to me anymore so I might as well let them know how is everything is going.

*Went to Mardi Gras. Well Im not much for the whole spend 100's of dollars just so you can bang a whore, so i just kicked it and enjoyed what a good group of friends I have. This was my first road trip with Brewer since the Dead even days. I cant tell you how much I missed him and all the dudes. And since everyone got arrested but me and colin, We all grew closer as friends. It was all worth it for ben. Even though this trip was for his bachelor party, it really ment alot to me. I miss everyone so much. I finally feel ok about how my life is going.

*Speaking of Dead Even. Rob and Salt The Wound are kicking so much ass. Im really glad to see they built up a good amount of hype. And my boy Aaron ("The Devil Wears Woogie" or "Circle of Dead Woogies" (as we like to refer to entity of Woogie as) is playing in Above This Fire now. I couldnt be more proud of the both of them. With Brewer playing in 25 ta life (and other assorted Yo Yo Bands) I finally think all of us are really proud of what Dead Even got us and for what it made of us as Men.

*If you havnt heard Im currently apart of a super band of sorts. Im singing with Ghetto E in a hardcore band called FENIAN. This is a band I have been working on the down low since october. For the first time in a long time its a band all for the right reasons. We are doing this band because Cleveland needs a band like this. As a group we got together and said "Wow Cleveland Hardcore was so much better back in the day" (Look at how good the reunion shows do) Its about time cleveland gets another one. There is no goal of making it big or getting signed. I have other bands to do that with. This is a band that we all do for not only cleveland but for ourselves. We are sick of the shit that is being shoved down our throats, now as a unit we scream. THERE ARE STILL PEOPLE THAT CARE. We are playing the pirates cove on the Earth Crisis Firestorm Tour (Did you really think I wouldnt?) And we do all feel truly privileged to play the show and look forward to giving you what you want. Whats Real...

*I also have been held up in an undisclosed location with a person (who's identity will remain nameless) working on what could be the coolest project I have ever been involved in. Its sexy, you can shake your ass to it, and its full of energy. Its going to take some time to get it perfect, but as you all know... Baby steps and it might end up meaning more. This is the first time in my whole life that NOBODY is holding me back. I plan on giving it my all and hopefully there are people out there that will enjoy it. In a perfect world everyone would be dancing however they feel fit, They will wear whatever clothes they want to last them the rest of their lives; And I will be wearing my power glove.

*Jake is currently defending our freedom in IRAQ. All I know is he is doing great, still alive and catching the sand people. If you wanna talk to him you can contact him with jacob.koszewski on skype or jtk6696@yahoo.com on yahoo messenger. He could really use your support and send him some metal/hardcore cds he needs the fuel.

*I am working on something big for August. Im finally going to be in a situation to bring everything I am and Do together for all of Cleveland to enjoy. Stay tuned...

*Well that is all the major updates as far as my life is concerned. I am going to try and make some more of these updates to keep everyone in the loop. Im probably not going to talk about Wrestling or Gorilla in here. This is a personal forum and I dont feel right opening myself to criticism about how I feel about how my business's are doing. They are my businesses and that means they are my business.

*Thank you if you took the time to read all of this. Due to my job, wrestling or me just plain out being a piece of shit I have lost alot of you. But there is a good portion of you that made me the person that I am today. I appreciate that and even though we probably cant be friends again, I do miss you and would truly enjoy hearing from you. Just hearing that your okay would be enough. I really am happy with the live that I live nowadays but it would be nice to share a moment again.

Current mood: content

Current music: Pitchshifter-Informant?

8:37PM - Today I asked for a god to pour some wine in my eyes

Of all the Things I have lost in 2007...
-My Grandmother
-My best friend
-Absolute Intense Wrestling and My Ring
-My Car (even though I did get it back)
-My Freedom (never been in jail until this year)
-My Band


Aside from the loss of My Grandmother Milly, I wouldnt go back and change anything. Because of the hell that I had to go through this year I have so much to be thankful for. Firestorm Pro could possibly be one of my greatest accomplishments. I couldn't be more proud. I have alot to prove still in 2008 and I am so excited. It might take some time to make a difference but... Im young I have all the time in the world. Speaking of that, My biggest goal of 2008 is create the best band this town, hell this country has ever seen. Im already working with a few amazing musicians and come spring any fan of Dead Even, Garmonbozia or share The Passion I have for music will be greatly rewarded.

I would like to thank these people for going out of their way to be something special in my life in 2007... Ray Rowe, Amy, Thaiger, Colin Ta This, My Nigga Benny, Emily, Tommy, Michelle, Greg Kelley, Frankie, The Dev, Michael Hutter, Starless Phil, Matt Robey, Geoff, Jeb, Harold and Katie Rose.

Current mood: thankful

Current music: Soundgarden- The Day I Tried to Live.

3:21AM

On saturday night at 12:30 am 30 min into her first day of her 79th year my Grandma passed away. Jake called me from Iraq to tell me. Im almost 25 and this is my first Grandparent to pass away. Im very lucky. She was amazing and loving and one of the toughest person I have ever seen. I talked to my Grandfather that night and the first thing he said was at least she is not suffering, and how proud she was of me.

2:51AM - This song goes out to this weekend.

Faith No More * Path of Glory

You squirt out red and turn so yellow
And then you made me kill my own
I'm not afraid (coming)
But I'm afraid
Blood in your eyes again
Bravery, the face of man
Blood on your mind again
Chivalry, the face of man
Blood in your lies again
Enemy, the face of man
Blood in your eyes, again, again, again
Is this the only path of glory?
If so then I won't go alone
Follow the trail (running)
Follow the trail
Blood in your eyes again
Bravery, the face of man
Blood on your mind again
Chivalry, the face of man
Blood in your lies again
Enemy, the face of man
Blood in your eyes, again, again, again
Again [several times]
I'm not afraid, but I'm afraid
I'm not afraid, but I'm afraid

3:07AM - The day the whole world went away

Sometimes I wish i could enjoy the time i spend with the people that matter to me. There are so many people that really make a difference in my life. People that share the same energy as me. People that you look back and saw wow...that person had a big impact on my life. Now a days all the time shared is short...its never enough.



It didnt turn out the way that you wanted it.

5:12PM - All my friends please check this out!!!

I would like to invite all of you to be apart of the most important wrestling show in Cleveland this year...



Reply to this message if you are interested in being apart of this historic night. Thank you for your time.

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2:02AM - Posting Randum Thoughts

Friday was the Misfits
Saturday Was dead to fall then Schnauzer
Today was Poison the Well

All of it was so much fun. I havnt dont a weekend of shows in so long. I have been so busy. Schnauzer was fun, I have bruises everywhere and it hurts to laugh. I also lost my voice. Poison the well rocked out nerdy. Everytime i die soundcheck with integrity, the funny thing was half the current line up was working the show.

1:50AM - To all my real friends...

Check out my NEW wrestling fed.

1:32AM - There is still hope...